My day
Today I woke up with that strange knot in my chest, as if something were wrong and I didn't even know what. I sat down in front of the computer reluctantly, just out of inertia, intending to "do something," even if it was just staring at the screen without thinking. Everything felt gray, slow. I checked social media, closed tabs, and opened others without meaning. Even my coffee tasted boring.
10 at night
It's 10 p.m. The house is still just as quiet, the chair just as uncomfortable, but I'm... okay. Not perfect, but okay. Sometimes, even in a lonely room in front of a screen, something can change. Today I didn't go out, I didn't do anything "big," but I found small moments that saved my day. And that, in the end, is more than I expected.
My problems
When I feel anxious and troubled I think "I'm tired, why continue?" And I write anything in the chat, when I talk to my friends and that happens I feel tension, I do anything and that feeling goes away, today I blocked several of them... some very precious ones spoke to me back but I just let them go... it's weird.